on the things that dissappoint us

One of my favorite blogs posts I wrote in college was entitled, "How getting the small envelope can change your life, too." I wrote the piece a few days after I found out I got my first choice internship with Fleishman-Hillard and I decided I was moving to Sacramento to start my new life in food & wine PR. It seemed silly that I would write a post about not getting what I wanted only a few days after my post-grad life was falling into exactly the place I needed it to.

At the time, instead of all my successes flooding into my brain, I couldn't help but think about the times I had gotten the small envelope, which was what the post was about. Starting with my rejection from BYU, all the way up to my getting wait-listed for their program in Paris two and a half years later. Also including, but not limited to, that one random year I didn't make the cheerleading squad and the time in sixth grade where I didn't make the basketball team (which was insane. I am SO tall!). 

The point is, as it was then, all of these things forced me to choose something else. Made me pick up the pieces of my broken heart and put them back together with something else. 

Instead of BYU, I went to BYUI and made some of the best friends that I still have now and love more than anything. Thank goodness I didn't go to Paris, because I ended up living in the South of France for a year and getting a double bachelor's in French and journalism at Chico State. It was also living in France that I met a soul sister that taught me more about love and acceptance than anyone else.

If I had made the basketball team that year, I would have never tried cheerleading, and if I had never been emotionally devastated over that same pep squad three years later, never would have known how much I love tennis. 

We often think we know what's best for us, and what will make us happy in the end. We decide we want something, and often expect that desire is enough.

But it's not. And it never will be.

It's about all of the things we want and need coming together in a way that is no coincidence. It's about divine intervention making things happen the way nothing else can. 

Sometimes the best thing someone can do for us is to tell us no. This opens the door, for someone else to tell us yes. 

xoxo